Last year, I used to gloat to my family and friends in Malaysia that I would be celebrating Eid a day earlier because I was in Southampton.
This year the tables are turned.
:(
Serves me right :P
Oh well, at least Ramadan's still here :D
Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin :)
Monday, September 29, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Third year project
I was lying in bed when an overwhelming thought occurred to me.
I LOVE MY THIRD YEAR PROJECT! :D
(Which I submitted four months ago.)
Talk about repressed feelings, eh? :P
Yes, I thought it was a complete nightmare trying to figure out how to fit things together, but looking back at my project now, I can't believe that I actually managed to do what I had to do. I suppose my project is child's play compared to some of my classmates', but still, I think of it as my own little baby :)
I have to admit, my passion for the project didn't come until quite late into the process. I kinda regret not taking it more seriously. If I had worked a bit harder to complete the Probabilistic Latent Semantic Indexing bit of my project - yes, it's quite a mouthful - I would've aced it.
Nonetheless, I'm quite happy with how nice and shiny it turned out to be :D
I also find it very ironic that for a TYP that relies heavily on blog tags, I almost NEVER tag any of my blog posts :P
I LOVE MY THIRD YEAR PROJECT! :D
(Which I submitted four months ago.)
Talk about repressed feelings, eh? :P
Yes, I thought it was a complete nightmare trying to figure out how to fit things together, but looking back at my project now, I can't believe that I actually managed to do what I had to do. I suppose my project is child's play compared to some of my classmates', but still, I think of it as my own little baby :)
I have to admit, my passion for the project didn't come until quite late into the process. I kinda regret not taking it more seriously. If I had worked a bit harder to complete the Probabilistic Latent Semantic Indexing bit of my project - yes, it's quite a mouthful - I would've aced it.
Nonetheless, I'm quite happy with how nice and shiny it turned out to be :D
I also find it very ironic that for a TYP that relies heavily on blog tags, I almost NEVER tag any of my blog posts :P
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
One month to go..
.. before I go for BTN again :P
On one hand, I'm not too thrilled about reliving the "joys" of BTN but somehow I have a feeling that this time it's going to be different..
I know this isn't going to make sense to a lot of people, but..
I'm back :)
On one hand, I'm not too thrilled about reliving the "joys" of BTN but somehow I have a feeling that this time it's going to be different..
I know this isn't going to make sense to a lot of people, but..
I'm back :)
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
One down :D
Today, I received great news.. The thing I'm waiting for is on its way :)
Still have to wait for at least a month or so, but at least I'm getting there ;)
Most importantly, my mom's happy :D
Yay!
Still have to wait for at least a month or so, but at least I'm getting there ;)
Most importantly, my mom's happy :D
Yay!
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Things I found from the past
About a year ago, I just ended a relationship and the break up wasn't pretty.. So to help me deal with it, I made a secret blog where I ranted about absolutely everything..
But now when I look back at it, I realized that at the end of my very last post in that blog, I had made this really special pledge..
To Mr. Right,
When you find me, this is what I've got in store for you.
1) I will make you the happiest man in the world.
2) I will make you feel more loved than you ever thought possible.
3) I will make the relationship work instead of blaming you whenever it isn't.
4) I will communicate my feelings and emotions better, instead of bottling them up inside until it bursts.
5) I will turn your world upside down, but it'll be worth your while because you won't know anything you wanna do more than to be with me.
And that's a promise.
:)
The promise still stands ;)
But now when I look back at it, I realized that at the end of my very last post in that blog, I had made this really special pledge..
To Mr. Right,
When you find me, this is what I've got in store for you.
1) I will make you the happiest man in the world.
2) I will make you feel more loved than you ever thought possible.
3) I will make the relationship work instead of blaming you whenever it isn't.
4) I will communicate my feelings and emotions better, instead of bottling them up inside until it bursts.
5) I will turn your world upside down, but it'll be worth your while because you won't know anything you wanna do more than to be with me.
And that's a promise.
:)
The promise still stands ;)
Monday, September 8, 2008
Nights
It's kind of weird that I prefer night time because of the peace and quiet.. Yet at the same time, I don't really handle being alone all that well :S
I've discovered a long time ago that when I'm by myself at night, my head tends to think about a million things that I really shouldn't be thinking about.. Then I lose hours of sleep and end up waking up in the afternoon :P
The thing is, I'm addicted to this drug.. It's a mental "drug", btw.. Because it's a drug, it's not really good for me but I crave for it anyway.. The more I tell myself it's bad for me, the more I want it right here and now.. And yet, when I finally have it, I feel like I don't want it anymore.. Then when I lose it, I want it again.. And so the cycle continues..
Arrrggghhh.. I hate being an addict :(
I should find something else to crave for :P
I feel like my life's on hold.. Like I have to wait for something to happen before I can finally LIVE.. Well, I AM waiting for something.. And I've been waiting for it for the last six months now.. I am so tired of waiting! I wish I could just whip something just to make it happen..
I wonder why I'm so moody nowadays.. I suppose this self-imposed isolation is starting to take its toll on me.. But where can I go?
You know what.. If what I'm waiting for actually happens, the first thing I'm gonna do is go to the sea and just sit there.. I wanna hear the waves pounding on the shore.. Hear the birds swirling above my head.. I love being next to the water.. I once sat next to the river and cried my eyeballs out.. I was having a really rough time and when I was there, I felt safe enough to be vulnerable, so I cried.. When I left a couple of hours later, I felt so much better than I had in a long time..
So yes, now's one of those times when I could really use some "me" time next to the water :P
I've discovered a long time ago that when I'm by myself at night, my head tends to think about a million things that I really shouldn't be thinking about.. Then I lose hours of sleep and end up waking up in the afternoon :P
The thing is, I'm addicted to this drug.. It's a mental "drug", btw.. Because it's a drug, it's not really good for me but I crave for it anyway.. The more I tell myself it's bad for me, the more I want it right here and now.. And yet, when I finally have it, I feel like I don't want it anymore.. Then when I lose it, I want it again.. And so the cycle continues..
Arrrggghhh.. I hate being an addict :(
I should find something else to crave for :P
I feel like my life's on hold.. Like I have to wait for something to happen before I can finally LIVE.. Well, I AM waiting for something.. And I've been waiting for it for the last six months now.. I am so tired of waiting! I wish I could just whip something just to make it happen..
I wonder why I'm so moody nowadays.. I suppose this self-imposed isolation is starting to take its toll on me.. But where can I go?
You know what.. If what I'm waiting for actually happens, the first thing I'm gonna do is go to the sea and just sit there.. I wanna hear the waves pounding on the shore.. Hear the birds swirling above my head.. I love being next to the water.. I once sat next to the river and cried my eyeballs out.. I was having a really rough time and when I was there, I felt safe enough to be vulnerable, so I cried.. When I left a couple of hours later, I felt so much better than I had in a long time..
So yes, now's one of those times when I could really use some "me" time next to the water :P
Sunday, September 7, 2008
One month later
Today I got the best compliment in the world.
My brother said to me, "You're not the Dayah I know."
The reason? Because he can't understand why I'm good at cooking now.
Muahahahahahaha :D
As you can see, I'm very happy now :)
I'm thinking of a blog facelift.. Most of my blogposts have been quite depressing so I'm moving away from that.. This black background isn't helping either :P
Watch this space ;)
My brother said to me, "You're not the Dayah I know."
The reason? Because he can't understand why I'm good at cooking now.
Muahahahahahaha :D
As you can see, I'm very happy now :)
I'm thinking of a blog facelift.. Most of my blogposts have been quite depressing so I'm moving away from that.. This black background isn't helping either :P
Watch this space ;)
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