Lots of people have been asking me, what's so special about Southampton? Of course, there's the skema answers like the Malaysian community is strong, the living costs are cheaper than London, etc. But if you were to ask me, "Dayah, what's so special about Southampton?" I'd give you a completely different answer.
When I was in Southampton, I found freedom that I never felt in my life before. If I wanted to do something, all I had to do was find out how and it gone done. I did and achieved things I could never dream of doing, and it was all possible when I was there.
When I'm here, there's this huge sense of limitation surrounding me; I can't do this, I can't do that. But the worst part of it is that I've lost that drive of getting past those limitations. I've lost the "can do" spirit that was once my backbone when I was doing my degree.
Somehow I've ingrained in my head the idea that when I get back there, I'll be my old self again, the one who always lived life with gusto.
At some point in my life, I have to remember that it's not where you are that determines how fulfilled your life is. It's what you do with the cards that were dealt that really matters.
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